When I Die

This song is about the realization that the way you loved someone might have made you the best version of yourself that you could ever be, and also how when you die, you’ll want to leave this world as the best you ever were. So – even though that person might be gone from your life or things didn’t work out – when you die, you’ll try to think of the way you loved that person, because that love made you someone you’d be proud to be.

Lyrics after the jump.

i’ve got so much to learn
finally figured out
that i’ve got
nothing figured out
no not at all

you turned out not to be what i
thought, honestly it was
devastatingly made clear

whoa

still me, my heart, and i
doubtfully decline
to believe that my aim was less than true

in fact i’ll go so far to say
that i may never love again
in as pure a way i did with you

so i will try my hardest to
think of you, think of you
when i die, i will try
my hardest to, think of you

this dose of irony
isn’t lost on me, as i’ve spent
such care to let you go

but i’ve come to realize that no
matter how i try you will
never egress from my soul.

so when i think back on this
life, i’d be remiss if i
neglected all these years

the heartbreak, the autumn leaves
the things we wished we’d be
they were so lovely my dear.

so i will try my hardest to
think of you, think of you
when i die, i will try
my hardest to, think of you